there's this vicious cycle of mine that i always seem to get trapped in. its a battle between me and whatever it is i'm fighting with and majority of the time come out on the bottom. even when i've won, i haven't gained. so i see that as making me a loser still.
this isn't a pity party or a self bashing session. it's just a wake the fuck up and do sumthin!!!
i guess you could say i'm almost tired of losing. this time i'm serious...i think.
